Bright Eyes discography in my possession, chronologically: letting off the happiness every day and every night fevers and mirrors there is no beginning to the story lifted, or, the story is in the soil, keep your ear to the ground lua i'm wide awake it's morning take it easy (love nothing) noise floor four winds cassadaga
We allow ourselves to be corrupted by society. We allow ourselves to become lost in the internet. We allow ourselves to have such an excess of narcissism that we spend hours choosing what to reveal about ourselves on facebook in order to create an impression of someone we wish to be, and not at all who we are. We keep digital records of our daily events and feelings, because writing with pen and paper is so passe. We must smoke cigarettes as to occupy our hands, which may otherwise display some sort of truth, the truth of uncertainty. We must develop a reputation of consistency to form personas behind which we hide. We become uncomfortable without a connection; no cellphone, no internet, no safety net. We must illuminate the spaces in between one another with televisions, silver screens, the glow from the text message you just sent to the person you were thinking about while you were with someone else. We cannot be in silence or darkness, unless it is a specifically rebellious lifestyl...
It's an anxiety thing. Comes back every spring. Fresh foundations for some; new beginnings. A crumbling false sense of security found hiding in bed all winter for me. Store the winter coats and heavy boots in the back of the closet, with my hopes that the world really will be okay. So a glass of wine, benson and hedges and mumford and sons in a bubble bath.... and maybe tomorrow I'll have the strength to face another year of unachievements. Before I go back home to tell my mother I, yet again, have nothing to offer. "there's always next year!" "you said that last year."
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